My parents divorced when I was seven and both were remarried by the time I was nine. I'll talk more about that later. Basically the whole situation made me feel out of control and thus gave me many mental issues that I was ill equipped to deal with. I struggled with a lot of different control issues over the years since then (I'm eighteen now). I dealt with self injury in many forms and eating disorders. I messed up my metabolism and then I recently attempted to join the military. Turns out my bulimia caused acid reflux. So I got medically separated from boot camp after many weeks of medical hold. Now I'm home and I feel horrific and fat. I gained a lot of weight during boot camp when I was unable to purge.
Now I have even more control issues to deal with. I'm currently starting the 50 day diet. I'm hoping it'll bring some of my anxiety (not to mention my weight) down. I feel ashamed over my current weight so I don't really want to share that. But when I get down a bit I'm going to start recording my weight and intake on here. If anybody wants to do the diet with me here it is:
Day 1: 500 calories (or less)
Day 2: 500 calories (or less)
3: 300 calories
4: 400 calories
5: 100 calories
6: 200 calories
7: 300 calories
8: 400 calories
9: 500 calories
10: Fast
11: 150 calories
12: 200 calories
13: 400 calories
14: 350 calories
15: 250 calories
16: 200 calories
17: Fast
18: 200 calories
19: 100 calories
20: Fast
21: 300 calories
22: 250 calories
23: 200 calories
24: 150 calories
25: 100 calories
26: 50 calories
27: 100 calories
28: 200 calories
29: 200 calories
30: 300 calories
31: 800 calories
32: Fast
33: 250 calories
34: 350 calories
35: 450 calories
36: Fast
37: 500 calories
38: 450 calories
39: 400 calories
40: 350 calories
41: 300 calories
42: 250 calories
43: 200 calories
44: 200 calories
45: 250 calories
46: 200 calories
47: 300 calories
48: 200 calories
49: 150 calories
50: Fast
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~ Ana Snow
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